May 28, 2007

lives

It hurts a lot more lately for some reason. I mean the DDD/fibro pain and the anxiety accompanying it. Sometimes i feel trapped in a breaking-down body yet my mind/soul/whatever is still a baby that's growing. The pains get bad and the meds don't work as well anymore. I feel a sense of urgency that i need to get "ready" for something although i don't really understand what it is. There's something i need to get in touch with and learn to use. Maybe once i get that figured out, i will find out what it is i need to do and find not just escape but true relief. Maybe it's in this life, or maybe this life is just a step in the learning process. In any event, i have so much to say and don't know how to say it. Please hear me.

There is so much to learn, so much to see, and so much loving to do.

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